Insomnia last night. Couldn't fall into sleep for an hour after I went to bed. Too many things in my mind. Also the noise from flatmate's room wasn't helpful. They didn't turn on loud music but they just talked... So this morning I plucked up my courage to ask my flatmate about her boyfriend's stay. She denied that her boyfriend had been here for more than 3 nights. I don't think my memory was that bad. But there's nothing I can do when she denies. I just told her that I'd appreciate if they can be quiet - she said they just went to bed when her boyfriend came (implying they wouldn't make any noise!). I feel 老土 when I had to ask her like a parent how many times her boyfriend had come and asked them to keep quiet. I felt like I was a bad person (being inconsiderate) when I had to confront her like that, and when I had to be calculating, counting how many times her boyfriend has come in a week! I'm not sure if she's really that 'big shrimp head' (forgetting how many nights her boyfriend had been staying here). But if she's really mature and considerate enough, do I need to ask her things like that? *sighing*... I know friends will say it's my fault, that I've been spoiling her too much, that I didn't set rules at the beginning! :(
Maybe I've been too slow to find that's part of the culture of those from mainland China - not to discriminate them but I really don't appreciate their perceptions/values - like they can just let their friends access the flat that they share with other people without considering/respecting others' feelings..
I really don't want my relationship with my flatmate to end up in a bad way but...
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Ok productive today. Did some revision on the ACCA F2 paper for next Thursday's exam. Went to gym. Had lunch & dinner with some friends. Did food shopping (not have a chance to be a 'professional shopper' today!)...
Lunch: vegetarian breakfast + fish & chips
Yummy Yummy!
Dinner: Fish with rice in sweetcorn soup base
Dinner: pork chop rice
Dinner: rice noodles with shredded pork & preserved vegetables
Sometimes life is a struggle. The challenge in life should be to better yourself and not be distracted by the 'failings' of humanity. I stuggle daily to deal with the anger i feel towards people who have done bad things towards me (knowingly or incidently). I try to remember not to let those feelings overwhelm me, because if they do, I will have become the sort of person that I am seeking not to become... An Eye for an Eye may feel immensely satisfying, but it will forever stain your soul.....
ReplyDeleteThank you for your advice! :)
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